The Bearable Lightness Of Being

Dear World And Everyone In It,

Recently I've gotten to a state of pure bliss within the possibilities of life. As confusing as that may sound it's exactly how I've been feeling. There's so much hunger and so much drive in me to experience all that life has to offer. After seeing the movie "Eat Pray Love" I've become more in tune with it. I was touched. Touched in a way that I had never been touched before. This happy existence of life feels like I'm a virgin being touched for the very first time. There's so many things in this life that we could easily get caught up in. Fuck that. There's always be one thing that I have been consistent with every since I was born. I was always me. I was never anyone else and I don't try to be nor want to be. Despite all the hell I went through growing up amongst my grade school peers I always stayed true to myself because deep down inside that shy exterior there was the man you see here today. The one who doesn't give a fuck and who does what he wants and goes after what he wants.

These little trivial things that we concern our lives with on a day to day basis is sucking the life out of us. We get stuck. We get bitter and we start forming our own ridiculous theories because we are in our own head and we become claustrophobic to the world outside. This new sense of being, this new sense of choosing to be happy makes the being..well...bearable. In the past I've let people define me. I've let people tell me who I was and who I wasn't. Truth be told, I'm glad that I had the past that I had. At this point, I honestly don't care who thinks badly of me or whatever because it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things. It never did. Life has a way of making us feel like we have to defend ourselves or we have to be a certain way. It has a way of trapping you. You can't let life control you, you have to take control of your own life and grab life by the fucking balls and say "HEY!"..."HEY!"

Always go after what YOU want...never let society or anyone make you feel foolish or crazy for dreaming. I did for a long time and now I'm taking it back. I know that sometimes the situations that we're in makes it hard to do what we really want to do but I say do the best you can and be the best you can. Always stay on your path even if you have to take a job to support you until you get your dream. Never lose hold of it for a day. Do something towards your dream every day no matter how small and it will add up one day and you WILL have it.

It's about knowing what you have to contribute and knowing what you have to offer and knowing that you have what it takes. I know all of those things about myself and there's nothing arrogant about it. It's about knowing what you can do and showing people what you can do.

It's also about having nothing but love for people regardless...

Life can be great if you let it

luv you all

C